Though I know she loves me, tonight my heart is sad for all the happiness has been spent
on saying it was ok, I was just for a few months,weeks,days...
But there is no happiness left to spend, to say ok.
It mattered so much to me only to have it crushed with an uneasy explanation.
Nothing matters anymore for the caring that I once had dissapeared with the dream of being together.
I cared too much
and I do not believe I shall ever be the same for having a fear of losing what even isnt technically there..